Thursday, April 2, 2009

Happy Birthday

Today I celebrate my oldest daughters Birthday. She came in to this world 18 yrs ago today. I truly regret leaving the hospital without her. Some would say that I left and never looked back. And to that I would say it was all a lie.

For the last 18 yrs I have led a tortured life. I spend my days looking into the faces of the young girls I meet at work. And I try very hard to remember her face from her baby pictures. And I wonder what has become of my little baby girl.

Perhaps there will come a day when I can hold my daughter in my arms again. In the meantime I will look at the faces and wonder if one of them could be my girl.


Harmony said...

{{hugs}} to you.

Happy Birthday to your daughter, and great job to you for doing what you felt was best at the time, although it definitely wasn't easy.

MsRay said...

The Lord has plans for each one of us. Leave it all to Him. He knows what is best for you and your daughter. Who knows... one day soon, you will be reunited with her.

Have a blessed day!

Cashmere said...

Happy birthday to her..
I'm sure you'll be reunited with her one fine day.. you'll never know.. :)

Laurie said...

Heartbreaking. I cannot even imagine. I hope you find her, or she finds you someday. I bet she is looking for you in the faces of those she meets too. *hugs*

I hope you will come by and enter my iPod giveaway in support of my breast cancer walk.

Kiwi Riverman - The Writer said...

Happy Birthday to her, and what a brave decision, especially for the big bunch you have. Lovely looking site. Thanks for visiting mine.

I have four children and twelve grandchildren down here in NZ.



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Stacie's Madness said...

new here...just wanted to say, *hugs* I am sure it is a difficult day for you...just as the decision must have been then.

Dagmar said...

One of my family members has reunited with the son she gave up for adoption over 20 years ago. It has been a blessing but not without some hurt feelings on boths sides. They found each other through the Internet. I wish you luck that you will one day look into her eyes and that it is a positive experience for both of you.