Wednesday, August 27, 2008

What The Heck!!!


This is what happens when your husband tries to repair a garage door that is off the track. For all the wives of "Tim the tool man Taylor's" I understand what you go through. Not too worry though, the damage wasn't too bad. It is only gonna cost $350. dollars to repair the damage. Gotta love it.

Can anyone say OUCH !!!!

Monday, August 25, 2008

Happy Anniversary


Happy Anniversary to my husband. For the last two years we have been on a rollercoaster ride. And as I look back I realize, that I could not have survived if it had not been for you. You have been my husband, my friend, my lover, my psychiatrist when I was crazy, my shoulder to cry on, and the greatest source of comfort in troubled times.

The years have not all been bad. We have shared in some good times also. The days when there is nothing but laughter in our lives. And the joys of watching our children grow. Life has been good to us we must admit. For we are so fortunate to have each other. And in the end of our lives together, when the time comes for us to leave this earth, I will be a better person for having had you in my life.

Thank You Sweetheart for everything you are and everything you do. I Love You !!!

Saturday, August 23, 2008

Exhausted

Today was an exhausting day. We said our final good byes to our dear friend Herman. I cried so much today I got a massive headache. Then I started throwing up. I couldn't keep anything down, not even water. When I finally got home I went straight to bed and slept for like 3 hours. And that is so not like me. I never go to sleep in the middle of the day.

And then we had to field questions from our 5yr old and our 3yr old about death all day. That is always so hard to explain. They just don't have the concept down yet. I try to simplify it by saying that they went to be in heaven with the angels. Or that the angels needed another friend to play with. Or that Jesus was needing another friend to come visit. And then the hardest question of them all, "when will I see Herman again." That of course came from our 5 yr old. Boy, how to answer that one. All I could say was that you will see him again one day.

I do know that things will get better. And the empty space in our lives will eventually be filled with other things. But for now we struggle to adjust to the emptiness left in his absence.

Friday, August 22, 2008

It's Another Mental Vacation Kind Of Day


All this week I have talked about my favorite cities where I have lived. At the top of my list is beautiful Charleston, S.C. I fell in love with the city the first time I walked the battery. I used to go downtown in the evening and walk the historic streets amongst the houses. All you have to do is look around and you get a real sense for the history. I was amazed the last time I was there at home much had changed, and yet so much had not. I think today I will look into the cost of airfare to my favorite city. And just maybe plan a mini vacation to one of my favorite cities.

Monday, August 18, 2008

Rest In Peace Herman

My dear friend Herman passed on to a better life last night. He will be truly missed here by his loved ones. In passing he leaves behind his wife, brothers, sisters, his children, and countless numbers of friends.

He has left an indelible mark on our lives. A true leader he was. He was not just a friend. He was also a mentor, a Godfather to our son, and a guiding hand when needed. Always full of wisdom and knowledge, he always had the solution to whatever was troubling you. I don't think I can ever remember seeing him when he was not smiling. And he possessed a laugh that was absolutely infectious.

In his memory, I hope that we can all life our daily lives to the fullest. Never forgetting that tomorrow may not come. Tell the ones you love how much they mean to you Today.

Rest In Peace Herman....We Love You.

Saturday, August 16, 2008

I Want To Kill The Child

Heaven help me, give me the strength not to kill my nephew. My youngest nephew that is visiting with me.

He has been getting on my nerves since day one. He is only 10 yrs old. He back talks me, disrespects me, disobeys me, and then tonight he balled up his fists and threatened to hit me. I spoke to his mother tonight and told her that he is not allowed in my home anymore unless she stays with him. And he only behaved this way because he knows my husband is away. But even though he is not at home I have kept in touch with him. He is aware of some of the issues, though I have not told him yet that he threatened to hit me.

When it happened I was so close to stuffing my fist down his throat. But, thank God I walked away before I did. I don't believe in hitting children. But, I will not stand by and allow a child to hit on me and do nothing either. I know I would have done serious damage to him if I hadn't walked away. His mother is coming to get him in a few days, but that is not soon enough. I guess I will have to bite my tongue and pray a lot over the next few days.

Lord Give Me The Strength To Not Kill The Child.

My Weekly Mental Vacation


I think I will runaway to Paris today. What the heck, if my husband can take a break with his friends, than I surely can take a mental vacation. So Paris is my destination today. So much can be said about Paris. A beautiful city filled with history. I visited the city about 21 yrs ago, and I remember it like yesterday. I still remember standing in front of Notre Dame cathedral and looking up in awe. The magnitude of the artists handicraft was unimaginable. It is a safe bet that if I was ever given the chance to go again, I would go in a heartbeat.

Take a break from the madness in your lives today ladies. Find an activity that you want to do, and enjoy it to the fullest.

Friday, August 15, 2008

He Gets A Break....Now When Do I Get Mine

My husband is going away with some friends this weekend. Kind of a camping trip. He is happy to be going. And I am happy he is going. It seems like lately he has been getting on my last nerve. I love my husband so much. But some days he just gets under my skin. But, I suppose that happens to all married couples at one time or other.

The worst part of him going away is, I AM STUCK WITH THE KIDS!!! Not that I expected anything different. My world does revolve around the kids after all. And I do suppose that I am like every other woman in the world, I feel unappreciated. It's like my needs come last. The pecking order seems to go like this: My husband, my oldest son, my nieces, my nephew, my other two kids,and bringing up the rear is MOM. Now don't get me wrong, I support my husbands need to get away from the job and kids. He is a hard working man and a loving dad. But, in my dream world, He kisses me and gives me a plane ticket and a ticket for a cruise, and sends me on my merry way. And allows me to enjoy some peace and quiet also. But then the fantasy ends and I am sitting in my living room with screaming kids all around as I say " Calgon Take Me Away!!"

Wednesday, August 13, 2008

Not So Graceful Anymore

I came to the realization last night that I am no longer as graceful as a swan. And that I am still as clumsy as ever.

It was about 2:30 in the morning,and my son had just finished mopping the kitchen floor. I waited about 20 minutes to give the floor time to dry. With the kitchen lights turned off I ventured into the kitchen to throw something into the garbage can. And that's when it hit me. Or should I say I hit it. the floor was dry for the most part. But, I naturally found the one spot on the floor that still had water on it. And I proceeded fall. Now, I of course could not just fall onto the floor. Being the graceful swan that I am, I first fell into the kitchen table and hit my chest on the table. Then I landed onto the floor flat on my back. BAM!!! All I managed to say was "SON OF A ***CH". My husband walked into the kitchen to see me sprawled out on the floor moaning and saying "OH S**T".

After picking myself up and walking back to my bedroom. I just knew that I was gonna be in a lot of pain today. And true to form my ankle hurt from twisting it, my other leg is bruised in the worst way, and my chest is sporting one heck of a bruise.

So, lessons learned were as follows: 1. Turn on kitchen lights before walking into the kitchen. 2. Make sure the floor is dry before walking on it. And 3. Make sure if you do fall that you fall as gently as possible.

Sunday, August 10, 2008

I Wish You Well

To my dear friend Herman;

It has been a fun journey through life the last 4 years. You will be truly missed her in my heart. I wish you all the best. I know it is time for you to go. Your life here has been a full one. You have created many memories for your loved ones to remember you by. But more than anyone else, you will be missed the most by your wife. Your marriage was short, but filled with much love.

Today,is the day that the hospital staff is to turn off the machines that keep you alive. If it is God's will, perhaps you can stay a little while longer. Or maybe he will take you home to be with him. Either way, I want you to know that you have deeply touched my life, more than you will know. And for that I thank you.

To my readers: Today I hope that you can reach out and touch someones life as much as my friend touched mine. Whether it is a hug, a smile, a loving touch, or even holding someones hand. Let the people closest to you know how much you love them. For we don't know what tomorrow holds for us. Don't let another day pass without telling them how much you LOVE THEM.

Tuesday, August 5, 2008

Another Mental Vacation


This week I am so stressed out. I have decided to run away to Hawaii. I will see everyone in a few days.

Anyone wanna join me?