I am so discouraged right now. My life is not exactly going the way I planned it. Being deep in debt and struggling to keep my head above water is not helping any. At the end of June I got hurt on the job. Since then I have been on light duty and off light duty, only to be back on light duty again. When you are on light duty it means that you are not allowed to work any overtime. I am currently on light duty again.
As a person swimming in debt, I am in desperate need of overtime hours. It is very hard for me to keep up with my bills without it. Today, I was scheduled to work overtime, I showed up only to be sent home again after a few hours. I guess I should be grateful that I got 2 hours of O.T. So why am I so upset about not getting to work the entire day? I guess it is because I feel as though I am being punished for being hurt on the job. One of my bosses makes me feel as though I am one of those workman comp frauds. You know the people who complain that they hurt their back, then go out and work a construction job. NOT ME!! It is baffling to me that I can raise my arm to a certain level then it hurts, or I can bend my arm at the elbow and put it on top of my head, but I can't straighten it out. I don't get it. Not much I can do about it right now though. Just suck it up and try desperately to make money by other means.
The other issue bothering me is why I am not having any luck with the online stores I created. I have had them out their for a while now. But no luck with anything other than visitors. Maybe it just wasn't meant to be. Maybe I just need to explore other avenues. Out of the three sites I have, by far, my blog has been the most successful. Drawing so much more traffic than I ever dreamed. Sometimes, I wish that there was a magic wand to wave and "POOF" everything in your life that is in need of repair, is magically fixed.
Maybe one day I will be given the magic wand. Until then I have to hold my head up high, and keep on moving. Because if I stop, I will be consumed by all my worst fears. And life as I know it will cease to exist.