Wednesday, December 31, 2008

Time To Say Hello To A New Year

It is once again time to say hello to a new year. And good-bye to a year filled with many ups and downs. I must admit that I will be thrilled to see a new year come in. And I can not deny, that this year has been filled with an over abundance of tears and laughter.

Many families have their own traditions on how they welcome in the new year. Some attend lavish dinner parties with champagne toasts at midnight. And some go to clubs and dance til they drop. And others spend the evening at home with their loved ones. Well in my house we have our own tradition, my husband fires up the grill and we have B-BQ. And in Michigan it can be quite cold this time of year. And as usual I gave my husband my favorite speech. The " Knock yourself out, I will be in the house waiting on the food" speech. As of right now, the temperature outside is only 17 degrees. But the wind chill index says it feels like 9 degrees. Can you say BRRRRR boys and girls? Better him than me.

I hope that the new year brings more laughter and cheer than sorrow to each and every one of my readers.

Happy New Year to one and all

Sunday, December 28, 2008

More Than I can Handle

This week has been more than I can deal with. It seems like everyday in the last week something has gone wrong. And today was the last straw.

Let's see, last friday I lost my car keys in the snow at work. Saturday had 2 new keys made, paid the locksmith and then found my old keys. On Wednesday, a malfunction in the electrical system caused the power in my garage to stop working. Thursday we got stuck in a snow bank covered in ice and my father passed away. Friday had to put two new tires on our truck due to tread loss. And the creme de la creme, today I lost my cell phone in a Walmart store and my dryer decided it was tired of drying a ton of laundry each and every day and quit.

So now tomorrow I have to try and get a new phone and a new dryer. And we have an electrician coming to our house to fix our electrical system in our garage. And best of all I have to babysit my nieces while their apartment is being painted. And that I got nominated because my mothers house has no heat due to a power outage.

I am pleading with someone, anyone to put me out of my misery. Send me on a vacation or just hijack me and take me somewhere else. Perhaps I could be kidnapped by aliens before tomorrow. Wouldn't that be heavenly. Or I could repeat the phrase " Calgon Take Me Away" until I disappear or my children vanish......which ever comes first.

Saturday, December 27, 2008

And She Sleeps Finally

It seemed like it took forever for me to fall asleep last night. I went to be around 9 p.m. and didn't fall asleep until well after 3 a.m. My eyes were feeling like they were on fire and my body was exhausted. But I still was not able to fall asleep.

No peace in my mind or in my heart was preventing me from sleeping. I can't help but wonder if he passed knowing I loved him. Or if he harbored the same resentment and anger towards me. But I will never know now for he will take that to the grave with him.

Thank you for all those who have sent up their prayers and condolences to my family and I. I truly appreciate them all.

Friday, December 26, 2008

Too Tired To Cry Anymore

Well the arrangements have been made for my father. My stepmom decided to have him cremated and not to have a memorial service. I was devastated because I wanted a chance to say good bye.

My husband came up with a brilliant idea. He suggested that I call the funeral home and request to see his remains. The funeral director said she would have to get permission from his wife. She asked me to call her back in 5 minutes while she called his wife and asked. When I called back she said that the family agreed to let me view his remains, but I had to be at the funeral home before 5 p.m. and it was already after 3 o'clock. So out the door I went with my husband and my oldest son in tow.

My youngest sister met me at the funeral home. When we went inside, the director gave us a brief speech about what to expect. And she told us that he did die last night somewhere between 10 and 10:30 p.m. I braced myself as we walked up the stairs to the viewing room. As I walked in I looked at his face, and he looked so peaceful. I must admit I was a little taken aback to see him lying in a cardboard box. But the director explained to us that this is the way they transport people to the crematorium. I instinctively reached out and touched his hair and stroked it like a parent does to their child. A undeniable feeling of peace swept over me as I touched his cold face. I did not want to take my hand away. I wanted to stay with him and not leave. I stood by his side and cried a river of tears as I held my hand on his cheek. And before I left, I bent down and kissed his forehead and whispered to him " Rest in peace Daddy". And somehow I feel better knowing that I had a chance to say Good Bye. And that I know that I will see him again one day in the presence of my Lord.

Rest In Peace Daddy

Saying Good Bye To My Father

Christmas day was a wonderful day in my house. The kids had a ball playing with all their toys. My nieces got what they wanted from Santa. And I was tickled pink that my husband got me all the things I asked for.

Then this morning my mother called me. She called to tell me my father passed away last night. And all the feelings I have been stuffing inside for the last 8 yrs, flooded to the top. And I cried like I haven't in years.

You see I have been harboring lots of anger for my father. When I was 8 yrs old my parents divorced. And at 11 yrs my mother remarried. And this is when my father decided to walk out of our lives. I did not see or hear from my father for the next five years. During the years he was out of my life I endured being molested by my step father. He took a new wife and family also. Then when I was 19 yrs old I fell in love with his oldest son by his new wife, and we married. And for about 6 yrs I had the opportunity to be apart of my fathers life again. And he got to know my son. But I never spoke up about the pain I went through during his absence. I continued to hide it. Eventually, I divorced my first husband and moved on with my life. And for awhile I avoided my father and his new family because of the connection to my ex husband. But I did go back. And I would visit from time to time. Until one day when we had a falling out about my ex-husband. I felt as though he was choosing them over his flesh and blood. And I left and never went back. He continued to have a relationship with my sister and her children through all these years. But I was never included in his life.

So, I am sitting here confused as all hell today. Because I don't understand why my heart is in such pain. And why the tears are flowing like a river. But I am sure the days that follow will be painful. For I will have to face issues, people and emotions, that I have denied for far too long.

So, for now I will say a prayer for his wife and the members of her family. And I will dry my tears, for my life will go on. There are tasks to be done today. And even though I wish I could crawl into a hole somewhere and hide from the things ahead. For today my life must go on.

Monday, December 22, 2008

I Have A Great Boss



I have a great boss. A real ham so to speak. Like today for example, we were doing volunteer work at a local soup kitchen. There was about 15 of my coworkers and our top three bosses. And our head boss showed up looking like he was very much in the holiday spirit. So I couldn't resist catching a few pictures of him with my cell phone. And believe me when I say that after today my attitude towards the holidays has started to take a turn for the better. I am finally starting to get happy about Christmas. I even started to try and fix my tree up so that it actually looks like a x-mas tree.

Only one more day left to finish off my shopping and start wrapping everything up. It is crunch time for Santa is hiding behind every corner in my house. So, if I don't get to post again in the next few days.......I hope that everyone has an incredibly enjoyable Christmas. And I hope that the joy of the Season touches everyone in the best possible way.

MERRY CHRISTMAS

Saturday, December 20, 2008

Unbelievable

I have had an incredibly bad week. I lost the only set of keys to our car yesterday. And we only have one key to our car. And the bad part is that we don't know where we could have lost them. My husband and I both worked yesterday and we believe that we lost the keys on the parking lot shuttle. But of course everyone and everywhere we looked no one had any keys.

So today we have to have a locksmith come to us to make a new key. The process takes about 45 minutes and only about $185 dollars. We tried numerous different companies but no one was available to do the job. And then I called the airport police, and they suggested a company. And wouldn't you know I hit the jackpot. Not only were they available, but they came to the house to pick us up. And as I am writing this my husband is at the parking lot with the locksmith getting a new key made.

So, a big Thank You is in order for our men in blue at the airport, they always come through when you need them. And also to the locksmith goes my kudos, Thanks for coming to rescue me when noone else would. And to my husband, THANKS for not killing me.

Thursday, December 18, 2008

Beyond Embarrassed

I have been in denial way too long. I am no longer in control of my body. And I have embarrassed myself for the last time.

I suffer from a problem that is not that uncommon for women. I have a bladder control problem. And that in itself is not something to be alarmed about. But what has been happening to me lately is. I am no longer able to stop myself from peeing. And it has gone beyond the issue of just releasing when you sneeze or cough. I now am able to pee uncontrollably while standing still. And it is happening more and more. Like a helpless child in toilet training, I feel as though I need to be wearing diapers.

And the worst part is that two years ago I visited a urologist for testing. And indeed I was told that I had a condition common in women called prolapse. It is when weak muscles allow the bladder to fall out of place. And mine is bad. So bad that I am in need of surgery. And when the doctor told me that I got scared and walked out and never went back. But I can no longer deny my need for the surgery. I have been told that it is a relatively simple procedure. And the recovery time is short as well.

So you might be saying what is the problem just get it done. But my stupid fears are holding me back from living a normal life. But I have to face my fears and return to the doctor. Because I am afraid now that I might just slip up and pee like a toddler all over the floor. And I would have to just die from the embarrassement. So I have to ask myself which will it be.......diapers or surgery? Hmmmmm that's a tough one but I will have the surgery. Because I just can't stand the thought of trying to squeeze my big old butt in Huggies again.

Wednesday, December 17, 2008

Too Tired To Enjoy The Holiday

Lately, between work and my home life I have been so tired. So tired in fact that the holiday just seems to have lost all meaning in my life. It doesn't seem to hold the same magic that it had when I was younger. It seems as though with every passing year the feelings get stronger. And I am wondering if I am the only one that feels this way?

Perhaps my vacation from work next week will help. But I don't think it will. I am in a deep funk and I can't see the light at the end of the tunnel. And as much as I hate to admit it, I will be thrilled when the holidays are over with.

Tuesday, December 16, 2008

My Son Has A Girlfriend

My son finally has a girlfriend. But it's my 5 yr old son. He came home from school yesterday and informed us that he now has a girlfriend. My husband was a little shocked at this statement and a little worried too. But, myself, I found it to be cute.

I had to remind my husband to let things be for now. After all it is just another stage of growing up. That first so called puppy love. But you do have to be careful to listen to the things that they say. And to remind them that they are only five. Like my son said he would have to marry this girl because she is his girlfriend. And that is when mom simply said " Don't be in a hurry son, enjoy being young". And he simply responded by saying "O.K." And off to bed he went.

Oh, how quickly our children grow up. I have to remind myself to enjoy every minute of their youth, for they don't stay young forever. So for tonight I think I will just step back and watch my babies be babies. And enjoy the precious joys of their youth.

Saturday, December 13, 2008

Getting Caught

Well last night did not exactly go the way I planned it to. I was following my usual routine and was grocery shopping with my oldest son and my niece. As usual my son and niece went their seperate ways when we entered the store. They were browsing around while I picked up the weeks food. Nothing out of the ordinary until we went to leave the store. Nothing unusual that is until store security stopped my niece for shoplifting.

The weather was rather inclement so after paying for my merchandise I went to get the truck while my son paid for his stuff. My niece was also making a purchase of some toys for her daughter. As I was loading my groceries into the car I noticed my niece standing in the doorway talking to two men. I stood and watched for a minute and then I entered the store and asked the one man what was going on. I stated that I was her guardian and I wanted to know what was going on. The man informed me that he would speak to me in a moment. I watched the look on her face as the man asked her where the merchandise she took was. You could tell by the look on her face that she was reaching desperately for answers. But she was adament that she had done nothing wrong. I listened carefully as the man explained to me what they had observed. I then asked my niece to remove her coat. And as I reached my hand into the coat pocket I pulled out the merchandise that she had not paid for. I was hoping that it would not be true, that she hadn't taken anything. But my hopes were dashed when I removed the stolen goods. Imagine my dismay when I was asked to accompany her with the security to the loss prevention office. It was explained to her that the only reason the police were not being called was because I was with her.

We were told that her information was entered into their computers, so if she ever tried to do this stupid stunt again, they would notify the police instead of letting her go. And they also told us that we would be getting a bill from the stores lawyer for about $200.00 dollars. That's right 200 dollars. All because she wanted to be stupid. I was at a loss for words. The drive home was a long one. Let's just say I had more than a few choice words for her. And she sat in the back seat as quiet as ever. Not a word did she speak.

But the best was waiting at home for her.....her uncle. My husband was so outraged he unleashed his anger in the form of a verbal lashing. What do you say to a child that is on the verge of adulthood, and yet acts like a 12yr old? After about an hour or so, when the steam stopped coming out our ears, my husband and I talked about what had happened. Still at a loss for words, I started to giggle. My husband asked why I was laughing, and all I could come up with a memory of my mother-in-law. She passed on a few years ago, and I told my husband that I could picture her up in heaven laughing her butt off at us. And I just said " Thanks for the joke Mom!!"

And as we finished off the day lying in bed, about to drift off to sleep, I laughed again and simply said " Thanks again for the joke Mom"! To which my husband just laughed and kissed me and went to sleep.

Paying It Back


We have had a fun couple of months. Off and on we would have problems with our car not starting. And it always seemed to happen at the worst times. Like when your at the grocery store and you come out and load all the groceries into the car only to find out that it won't start. So you have to go to a stranger and ask for help starting your car. Occassionally you would get a person that would say NO. But mainly people always say yes they will help.

Well this morning as I was running my morning errands, I stopped in a gas station to pick up something to drink. As I pulled into the parking area I noticed two men trying to start their truck. I naturally didn't think much of it as someone was already helping them. So into the store I went to get a hot tea to warm my cold bones. As I was standing in line to pay for my drink a man approached me and asked me if I drove the excursion in the parking lot. I said yes that it belonged to me and he asked me for a jump. Without blinking an eye I said Yes I would help them. After all the times that people have given me a jump it was the least I could do. When I pulled my truck around I couldn't help but notice that the cables they were using were not gonna work. But we hooked them up anyways just to give it a try. Naturally they did not work even after a good five minutes of trying. So, I suggested to my son that we try the cables that I carry in our truck. And wouldn't you know that literally a minute after hooking up my cables his truck started right up. The man said "Thank you", closed his hood and drove away.

So, today was my chance to repay some of the kindness that strangers have shown me. And I must admit that it feels good to do something nice for someone else. And in the tough times that we are living in, everyone needs a helping hand from time to time. And we should all be reaching out in some way to help each other out.

My mission for today: Do something nice for someone else. Even the simplest things sometimes mean alot. So help an elderly person load their groceries into the car, or hold open a door for someone, or donate food to a food bank or shelter. IT doesn't matter what you do, as long as you do something

Wednesday, December 10, 2008

Meeting Celebrities At Work


From time to time I do get to meet a celebrity or two at work. This week I happened to have the pleasure of meeting Lakisha Jones from American Idol. She was a contestant on the 6th season. And since she is from my home state of Michigan I was always voting for her on the show. But sadly she did not win. But, like so many others, she did find a certain amount of fame.

She was so nice and kind. It turns out that she had been in town to sing the National Anthem at the Lions game. Well when I told her I was a fan of hers she gave me a copy of her new single "So Glad I'm Me". I finally got to listen to it tonight, and I am happy to say it was very good.

So, for all the Lakisha fans out there.....check out her myspace page at:

http://www.myspace.com/lakishajones

While your there give a listen to her song. And to lakisha...Thanks for the CD it was great.

Saturday, December 6, 2008

Happy Birthday To Big Daddy



Middle age is when your age starts to show around your middle. ~Bob Hope

That's right today is my husbands' Birthday. He is another year older and none the wiser as the saying goes.

I know you have to work today, but, I truly hope that you get the best of everything today. And that the year that follows will be filled with nothing but joy and happiness.

With much love your wife and kids.

Thursday, November 27, 2008

Happy Thanksgiving

First let me say that I hope everyone had a truly enjoyable day. And that you had a chance to come together today with friends and family alike. And that your table was overflowing with food and the love and joy of the day was abundant.

And let me say a big THANK YOU to those that gave up their holiday to work. Whether it was for a retail store or a critical job in your community or serving your country in a far off land, I truly hope that you found some joy in the day. My hat goes off to all those, like myself, that sacrifice their day with their loved ones to perform their jobs. I can understand and appreciate the sacrifices that you make to keep this country running.

And for our service men and women that are serving in a far off land, I pray that today you are safe, and that you will be home with your families soon. Thank you for all the sacrifices that you endure daily so that you can protect my freedoms.

GOD BLESS YOU ALL !!!!!

Saturday, November 22, 2008

The Best Mental Vacation Yet


Today is yet another opportunity for me to run away in my mind. And this is the best one yet for me. I am drifting far off into my fantasies. In my fondest childhood fantasies, I am a princess living in a beautiful castle. I wear the most spectacular gowns and have long flowing hair. I wear only the finest of gems and jewelry. And the most handsome men in the land pursue me for marriage.

Wow, what a fantasy land that is. I will still run away in my mind today. As I remember the splendid beauty of the castles of France. I still can vividly see the castles that I toured. The images are burned into my mind. And these are the types of images that I want to stay. As I lazily sauntered through the rooms, it almost felt like I was at home. It felt as if I belonged here. I remember visiting a church in Bescanson, France, and if I close my eyes if feels as if I am still there. It was Easter time. and the church was filled with the most fragrant flowers. And as I stood before the alter, all I saw was gold. It seemed as if the entire church was made from gold. I had never seen so much beauty in my life.

So, forgive me today if I seem lost in never, never land. And if it seems as though I never want to return to my life here in Michigan. But just for today I want to remember the fondest of my childhood memories. So, for today I am a princess living in a castle, waiting for her handsome prince to take her away to a land far away.

Thursday, November 20, 2008

Home Sick


Today I am home sick from work. I have been struggling for a few weeks now. It started out innocently enough. Just burning eyes and nose, sneezing and a nose that had a river running out of it. Now, I am hacking up the icky stuff. The kind of stuff that makes mom's say EWWWW. And it feels like it will never end.

So, hopefully today, after dropping my husband and son off at work, I might be able to get some much needed sleep. And since the kids have 1/2 days at school today, and I don't have to take the younger kids to the sitters. I might be able to finally get more than just a few hours of sleep. And that right now is what I need so badly......sleep. And sleep is the great healer. It allows your body to renew itself. You wake up feeling refreshed and ready to take on the world. But, when you don't get enough sleep, you suffer and your body begins to suffer. That is why doctors always tell you to get plenty of sleep when you are sick. Because that is when your body is able to repair itself.

For all the moms who are feeling just plain icky today, take the day off for your health. Stay in bed, put your favorite movie in the DVD player, and just rest. You need your rest now more than ever. Lets not forget that cold and flu season is upon us, and soon enough we will be wiping runny noses, and soothing our sick husbands and children. So, I am declaring that today is take care of MOM day.

Tuesday, November 18, 2008

Tough Love

I know I am going to take a lot of criticism for this post because of the nature of it. But I have never shied away from being honest about the happenings in my life, and I am not about to start now.

Last week was another difficult week in my life. We had to make the very hard decision to place my 15 yr old nephew in foster care. It was becoming more and more obvious that he no longer wanted to reside with us. His refusal to abide by our rules, threatening behavior towards our younger children in the house, using kitchen knives to destroy property in our house all were warning signs. The most troublesome was the threatening statements made to the youngest members of my household. Now call me crazy, but my number one priority is to protect my young children that can't protect themselves.

So, when his mother petitioned the court for termination of our guardianship, we welcomed it with open arms. We were more than willing to hand him over to his mother. But, unfortunately things did not go as planned. The weekend before the hearing, his mother was arrested for DUI. And when the time came for the hearing, she was still in jail. So, at the court when asked by the judge where the petitioner was, we told the truth. Then we stated that we were still wishing to terminate our guardianship. Then the judge asked for a reason why we wanted to end the guardianship, we told him the truth. And he was somewhat understanding. He then asked my nephew if he wanted to end the guardianship his reply was "Yes". The judge then made the ruling that he was to be turned over to the foster care system. And so it was done. The same day as the hearing, he left our care.

The next day when his mother was released from jail. She called my husband and asked about how the hearing went. When he told her, she was upset. She was under the impression that he would ask for another date for the hearing. I guess she was thinking that she would still be awarded custody of her son. But, she forgot that the two children that were living with her, were now in foster care also. And that she is facing child abandonment charges on top of the DUI.

And I have to mention the incredible peace and quiet that has taken over my house. Gone are the bickering, yelling, screaming and threats of violence. And it has been replaced by the laughter of the children. And we were able to turn the extra space into a play area for our kids. The house still feels cramped, but, now it has a feel like a home. The house is not as messy and requires less cleaning. And that I must admit is nice.

Now the question is, where do we go from here. Well the answer is simple....life will still continue to be hectic. For life with 6 kids is just as crazy as having 7 kids. There are still school functions, and doctor appointments, and reminders that the rules have to be followed. Some things never change.

Do we miss our nephew.....the answer is yes. I can only hope that where ever he is at....that he is finding some joy in his life. And perhaps working to make his life a better one.

Saturday, November 8, 2008

Packed House Again

For the first time in months, my house is overflowing with kids. I kinda don't mind this in the warmer months of the year. But, this time it is cold and rainy outside. And we all know what that means.....stuck in the house. The kids will not be going outside to play. Oh what a joy it is. There is nothing like having 8 kids stuck in a house. I can once again picture kids swinging from ceiling fans and in one word, basically destroying my house.

I reminded my husband last night after he returned home with all the kids, about how indifferent I was about having all the kids in my house. He was of course confused at first. But, then I reminded him of my obligation to work today. To which he replied " You mean I am here all by myself with all these kids? " To which I said " Yup, it's finally payback time for you. Payback for all the times you brought the kids home and dumped them on me. So enjoy the day with your nieces and nephews. "

I only hope that my house is as nice and neat when I return home tonight, as it is now. We have put a lot of hours in lately to really cleaning house. And while it is not perfect.... It still looks a heck of a lot better than it did. But, one thing is for sure, I am not cleaning any messes up tonight. That job will belong to the man who brought the kids into our home, my beloved husband.

Thursday, November 6, 2008

Fall In Michigan


The sky is alive with colors again. I love the way the it looks like the sky has been touched by the hand of God. As if he dipped a brush in paint and just wiped it over the trees. And this year fall has seemed to last much longer than usual. Not that I am complaining. I mean I love the sound of the leaves crunching under my feet when I walk. And the vibrant colors that dot the landscape. But, alas, fall will be gone all too soon, only to be replaced with colder temperatures and snow. Don't get me wrong, I enjoy the snow, I just can't stand the cold weather. So, the warmer than usual weather that we have been enjoying has been so welcome. I just wish it could stay like this all year long.

Monday, November 3, 2008

Past Due For A Mental Vacation


I am seriously past due for a mental vacation. This time I think I am gonna head off to Amsterdam. I hear that it is a spectacular city. One filled with endless adventures. I truly can't wait to be intoxicated by the sweet smell of the tulips.

So join with me in creating a quiet environment. Turn off the tv, pour a cup of coffee, and sit the heck down somewhere. This is a time out for you. Close your eyes and drift off to beautiful Amsterdam.

Friday, October 31, 2008

A Beautiful Day



You could not have asked for a better day today. The weather was absolutely fabulous. It hit almost 68 degrees today. Perfect weather for trick or treating with the kids. No coats required. And here in Michigan that is a rare thing.Usually we have to purchase costumes big enough to put heavy coats under. Normally we have snow flying and frigid temperatures. But that just goes to show you how unpredictable the weather can be. I will take this weather any day over snow and freezing rain.

Tomorrow is the day we change our clocks back an hour, and that means that it gets dark very early. And it takes me forever to adjust. I start getting very sleepy at 4 or 5 p.m. And find myself dragging for the rest of the day. And that is rough when you work until 9 or 10 p.m. Spring will not get here quick enough this winter. I so love the warmer months.

Well I guess in the mean time, I will have lots of time to work on my site. Perhaps even have enough time to do a complete make over.

Halloween Pics





Too Cool


While out trick or treating with my kids tonight, I took the greatest photo. It almost looks like it's floating.

Saturday, October 25, 2008

A Date For Mom And Dad

Tonight my husband and I took the opportunity to take some time out for ourselves. It was date night for us. A rare thing for us lately. It seems as if we are always working our rear ends off day in and day out. And never are able to find the time for each other. Those precious moments when we can sneak away from the kids for a few hours. And spend some much needed quiet time. Of course the kids don't understand how important it is for us to have that time alone. They responded that all we have to do is to go into the bedroom, and lock the door. But little do they know that it doesn't work that way. Staying home never works out the way you plan. There is always something that needs to be done. And your personal time always gets put on the back burner.

I can't wait until the next time that we have a date night. Maybe I can convince my husband to get a hotel room for one night. Maybe we could even go dancing. Or just find a place to be an adult and just hang out. But until then, I must find other opportunities to just steal some quiet time for my husband and I.

Friday, October 24, 2008

The Field Trip





Today was a fun day for me. I went with my son's kindergarten class to an apple orchard for the day. It was a day filled with picking apples, hay rides, haunted houses, petting zoos, and putt-putt golf. And of course the usual things like apple cider and powdered donuts. Though it was incredibly windy and chilly day, we had a great time. Can't wait to go again next year.

Monday, October 13, 2008

Bad Haircuts, Birthday Parties And Wardrobe Malfunctions

The last week has been so much fun. We seemed to go from one extreme to another. It is amazing how life can be so frustrating, and yet so enjoyable all at the same time. But the fun really started on Thursday night.

It started out innocently enough. I got up as usual, dressed the kids, fed them breakfast, showered, and out the door I went to work. It was my Friday, and as usual it is a busy day at the airport. The day seemed to pass by effortlessly. And before I knew it, it was time to go home. And that my friends was the start of my fun. When I got in the car to go home, my husband informed me that our five yr. old son cut his sisters' hair. And of course, I thought no big deal. Little did I know how bad it was until I got home. He had cut all of her hair on one side of her head. And not just a small amount of hair. We're talking her hair was boy short. But yet, he left the one side untouched. It looked like a bad remake of the movie Edward Scissorhands. I was mortified and speechless. I had no other choice but to finish the job. I almost cried when I had to take scissors in hand and finish her haircut. When I asked my son why he cut her hair, his reply was " We were just playing hair shop!!" What's a mom to do.....but laugh!

Then on Saturday we had a birthday party to attend at a popular pizza restaurant. When we showed up the guest of honor hadn't even showed up yet. So, there we were in a place with a million screaming kids, and I had a headache. Just the thing you want when you have a head that feels like it is about to explode. We were patiently waiting for the birthday boy to show up, so I found a table in a semi-quiet part of the restaurant. I was desperately trying to relax while my husband and oldest child played with the kids. Then it happened, I experienced a most embarrassing moment. I broke my bra. The little piece of fabric that holds it all together in the front, broke. So, now I am trying to keep from exposing myself to a million strangers, while politely excusing myself. I asked a few of my husbands cousins if they had a safety pin. But, of course the answer was NO! What's a girl to do? I had to leave and go to the corner drugstore in search of safety pins. Thankfully I had a jacket in the car. Before I put on my coat I whipped off the defective bra and threw it on the seat. While I was searching in vain in the store, it came to me that the longer it took to find the safety pins, the longer I could have peace and quiet. I then took my sweet old time to return.

I did discover when I returned to the pizza place, that there is just no right time or place to do a repair on your bra. Let alone put it back on in a crowded parking lot in broad daylight. But, I resorted to an old trick of mine and managed to get it back on without exposing myself to the world. I was tricked into believing that I had fixed my wardrobe malfunction. Until the safety pin popped. I guess I bought ones that were too small, when I really needed the industrial strength ones. So, I spent the rest of my evening at the party running like a mad woman to the bathroom to fix myself.

The party dragged out for way too long. And when we were finally able to leave, we got suckered into driving children home. I was so relieved to leave that I agreed to take them home just so we could go home. I did have a good weekend, a busy one, but good. I can only say that this weekend I am glad to not have any plans for anything but relaxing.

Thursday, October 9, 2008

Update On My Injury

Well today was my last appointment with the doctor for my injury that I got at work.
The doctor was surprised at my response when he asked me how I was doing. I replied to his question with one word "FABULOUS". He was puzzled to say none the least. For a person in my state of health I should not be great.

I told him of the changes I have made recently. No coffee, pop, dairy, and limited amounts of junk food. I also told him that I have been taking Glucosamine. And he was surprised when I said I had really been almost 100% pain free for almost 3 weeks now. No pain medication at all. Now, he did agree that the changes will be for the best.

I know I have not mentioned it, but when they did my testing to diagnose why I was still in pain. They discovered that I have severe arthritis in my shoulder and basically no cartilage left. The news was grim for me. The doctor told me that I was looking at a complete shoulder replacement. I was so devastated I cried for days. I asked myself how is this possible. I have had no real symptoms at all. And now I am being told I need a new shoulder. Well I was not willing to accept this without a fight.

So, I started reading up on natural healing and alternative medicine. I know that it is not the cure all for everything, but it wouldn't hurt to try. And I read the book 7 steps to overcoming arthritis by: Gary Null. And in the book he talks a lot about different pain medications and their effect on the body. And the effects of diet on the condition of the body. This is where I found out about the inflammation that occurs from consuming certain foods and beverages. And that certain over the counter medications that we take everyday for pain, actually do more harm than good. And that the one pain medication that I take all the time actually breaks down cartilage. So call me crazy, but I would rather be healthy than sick. And when push came to shove, I made the decision to be healthy.

And much to my dismay my orthopedic doctor actually was encouraging of my decisions as well as being surprised. But my family physician stayed true to her traditional medicine. She was somewhat negative in telling me that there are no medical studies that show the benefits of diet and other things on arthritis. And I am of the mindset right now that of course she is gonna say that. For if every one of her patients turned to alternative medicine to stay healthy the natural way, she would lose money. Will I stop seeing my doctor.....no. But, I will strongly consider the other options available to me from now on.

For now, I am incredibly happy with being pain free. And I know that my life will not be the same from now on. I have a different outlook on life. And I plan on trying my hardest to become a healthier individual.

It Takes Courage

I have had a few responses to my post about going cold turkey. One person asked me to post about how I have lost the inches and pounds. Really there is no secret to it. Like I said before, I gave up on eating garbage. And as a result of this action, I am reaping the rewards. And the reward is that my clothes fit better, and I feel so much better physically.

Another person wrote in and said that she did not have the courage to go cold turkey. And all I can say is that it takes courage to make the change. If you don't man up and say enough is enough, and take that first step, then you will never know what it feels like to be successful. I had to make a difficult decision. I could choose to continue poisoning my body with garbage, and sit back and watch my body steadily deteriorate. Or I could take a chance that what I had been reading was right. That if I made the changes quickly and didn't look back, that I would begin to feel so much better. And for me personally, I made the right decision. But, this decision is not for everyone. You have to find the thing that works for you. And once you make that change, don't ever look back. For that is where we begin to fall back into the old habits that got us here in the first place.

Friday, October 3, 2008

Forgot To Mention

In my post last night about going cold turkey, I forgot to mention one huge thing. Don't go cold turkey from coffee and pop unless you are prepared for some heavy withdrawals. I got horrible headaches for 3 days. And that is only because the toxic effects caffeine has on your brain are fading. But, it is a manageable thing. I still have a glass or two of tea everyday. Now I know some people don't like the taste of tea. This is an easy fix. Try adding some lemon or honey to it.

I have to keep reminding myself that this is a lifestyle change, and not a DIET!! This is key folks, because as we all know diets don't work long term. Lifestyle changes do work though.

Thursday, October 2, 2008

Cold Turkey Part 2

I am absolutely amazed at what has happened to me in the last week. As you probably remember, I went cold turkey from junk foods. I gave up coffee, pop, sugar, and almost all dairy products. I FEEL GREAT!!!! I am shocked at the changes in my figure also. Last week, I could barely button my work pants. Today I not only can button them, but I have about an inch or so extra. And at first I couldn't get my hands into my pockets, now I look like a kid wearing moms pants. They are so baggy, I no longer have a figure. And to think it has only been 8 days since I went cold turkey.

Now, I have to admit that I have cheated. I have my weaknesses. And right now my biggest weakness is chocolate. I have savored a couple of the so called fun size bars. And when I say savored, I mean just that. You pop it into your mouth and just let it melt. My favorites have to be Hershey chocolate bars with almonds.

And for anyone that is in doubt about the changes that occur when you go cold turkey. You don't have to take my word for it, try it for yourself. I sure you will be amazed also.

Tuesday, September 30, 2008

Nightmares And Dreams

I am not sure what has been going through my subconcious mind lately. But, I have had some of the most bizarre dreams ever. I am not normally the kind of person that acts out on their dreams. That is until last night.

For the life of me I don't know why I was dreaming I was being attacked. I could feel the attacker put his hand or his arm across my face. And in a moment of fear I reacted and bit my attacker. Then I heard his voice say " You bit me!" And then repeated the phrase " You bit me! Why did you bite me?" I fled the area and once again I felt safe.

Now normally I would be puzzled at the meaning of these types of dreams. But I got the answer this morning when I woke up. My husband was quite upset with me. And I asked him why he was upset, thinking maybe I had forgot to do something. Then he said to me " You bit me last night!" I was shocked that he said that. That is most definately a first for me. Never,that I can recall have I actually carried out an action from a dream. And all I could say was I was sorry. But then I said I was having a nightmare.

In some twisted way I am able to find some humor in it. However, I am pretty certain that my husband did not find it funny at all. Hopefully tonight I will get a very restful nights sleep.

Sunday, September 28, 2008

Fun With The Hubby



Couldn't resist snapping this picture of my husband with the triplets. He was grinning from ear to ear. Every man's dream I guess.

Going Cold Turkey

I recently gave up some of my true loves in life. Good-bye to my friends coffee, pop, sugar, and junk food. I hate to see you go but I am determined to win the war on the scale.

I also am determined to delay the deterioration of my joints any more. It seems that after years of abuse and neglect, my joints have finally become so diseased that I am facing joint replacement. I am currently pain free, and have every intention of staying that way as long as possible.

I have also done some reading on the connection between diet and disease. And it seems that in many cases like mine, certain foods and medications cause major deterioration of the joint. I have found out that coffee, pop and dairy products all cause inflammation in the joint. The more inflammation the more the joint breaks down. So, as you can see, all the things I have given up can only be for the good.

So far, I am on day number 6 of no coffee, pop, sugar, and minimal dairy products. And my 4th day without pain medication. So far, so good. I haven't had any pain in the joints. Just the nagging spasms in my neck and upper shoulder. And I have to admit that I never dreamed I could live any amount of time without my coffee.

Wish me luck, for it is still early and my days are still as long as ever. And my cravings are almost impossible to shake. And for anyone interested in reading it for yourself, the author is named Gary Null.

Friday, September 26, 2008

Something New

I have been so busy lately, that I completely forgot that I was tagged. Now, I am so new to this I am not quite sure what that means. All I know is to follow the instructions. So, here goes, I hope I get it right.

I have been tagged by my wonderful friend ... Tracy Cavelli. So I am supposed to post 8 random facts about me and then choose 8 people to get tagged!

First, the rules:1. Each player starts with eight random facts/habits about themselves.2. People who are tagged need to write their own blog about their eight things and post these rules.3. At the end of your blog, you need to choose eight people to get tagged and list their names.4. Don't forget to leave them a comment telling them they're tagged, and to read your blog.

Eight Facts About Me:

1) I am a picky eater.

2) With my last pregnancy, I spent the first 5 hours of my labor at work. All because I was too stubborn to go home.

3) My favorite colors are pink and blue.

4) I have battled with horrible depression most of my adult life.

5) I have been a nail biter all my life. Including my toe nails when I was a child.

6) I love to travel. And my favorite trip had to be when I went on a cruise with my husband.

7) I think nothing of hopping on my bike at 10 p.m. and riding like a mad woman to burn off negative energy.

8) My favorite music artist is Kem Kemistry.

Hope you enjoy my little quirks. Here is a list of the 8 people I am gonna tag:

The Dirty Shirt

Green Stew

My Junk Drawer

The way I see It

MommieDaze

Maria's Space

Musings from a Michigan Mom

Mom With Brownies

Tuesday, September 23, 2008

Welcome To My Nightmare

This is what I find every night when I get home from work. Is there never an end????


Click Here To View My Nightmare

Friday, September 19, 2008

Anyone Hungry???

While I was cleaning out my refrigerator tonight, I found the most appetizing item. It is a pot of spaghetti I made on Monday night. I stayed true to my usual routine, and I opened the lid to inspect the contents. And this is what I found....

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Not A Good Cook ? Well Thanks For Not Telling Me Sooner!!

Lately I have been feeling really horrible. And I am not sure if it is the medication I am on, or the fact that I have been really sleep deprived this week. Or a combination of both. But I do know that I have been snapping at everyone. Especially today.

Last night I was having a discussion with my husband and son. It was supposed to be about the unfair division of duties in this house. As always it is me doing most of the work, while my husband and son sit back and chill. But the conversation quickly became an attack on me. I was not too happy when my husband blurted out that he really does not like my cooking. And then he informed me that I force the members of our house to eat what I want to eat. And my oldest child agreed with him. Now mind you, when I go grocery shopping, nobody gives me any input. They stand by silently when I am making my selections. So, without input I was under the impression that everything was acceptable. Well, apparently not. The sad thing is that I had to pry this information out of my husband. He was afraid he would hurt my feelings. Now, I am walking around with a chip on my shoulder. And Yes, I am hurt. Hurt because I have been trying to do the right thing. Try to find different ways to cook foods. And healthier ways also. I don't think he knows how difficult it is to be creative with the same foods day in day out. Or how hard it is to find foods that don't break our pocketbook.

So, I made the decision to allow my husband to cook every night of the week. Now mind you, I generally don't eat the foods that my husband cooks. He is a meat lover. His idea of a lasagna is to cook 5 pounds of meat mix it with ricotta cheese, Parmesan cheese, a bunch of seasonings, and some different kinds of sauces. And then he smothers it all in cheddar cheese and bakes it until it is so hard you can't even bite into it. And it looks even worse than it tastes. It resembles something that comes out of a babies diaper. The kids won't even touch it. I have tried to get him to use different recipes in the past, but he won't hear of it. Recipes are not for him. And he would never dream of using one.

I guess in the coming weeks I will have to cook only for myself. Since I won't be eating the things that my husband cooks. And this is going to cause even more hostility in my house. Since he will literally try to force me to eat his foods. Wish me luck. Maybe by allowing him to do all the cooking I will finally be able to get my message acrossed. That he is not the greatest cook and that marriage is supposed to be about compromise.

Wish me luck

Sunday, September 14, 2008

100 Posts Already

It just dawned on my tonight that my post from 9/11 was my 100th posting. WOW!!! 100 already. It doesn't seem like it has been that many. I guess when you are doing something that you enjoy doing the time just flies by. And I so enjoy keeping up my blog. It has become a passion for me. I feel ill when I can't post or keep up with my site. You can call it a labor of love I guess.

It is now going on the 2nd full week of school. We have settled into a routine and things are cruising along smoothly. I am so happy that this year is going smoothly. Last year this time we had already had a child get suspended for inappriorate behavior. And I am sorry to say that it was my niece that no longer lives with us. But, that is all behind us now. I am truly hoping that things will continue to go as smoothly as they are now.

Now I just have to worry about my youngest son. His asthma is acting us again. It has been more than a year since the last time he had an attack. I have been driving my niece "Miss TT" crazy calling every couple of hours to check on him. The one time I called she informed me that my husband had just called also. It seems that our hearts and minds are always worried about the same things.

I hope everyone has a pleasant week. Keep on smiling.

Thursday, September 11, 2008

A Day Of Remembrance


'MEET ME IN THE STAIRWELL'

You say you will never forget where you were when
you heard the news On September 11, 2001.
Neither will I.

I was on the 110th floor in a smoke filled room
with a man who called his wife to say 'Good-Bye.' I
held his fingers steady as he dialed. I gave him the
peace to say, 'Honey, I am not going to make it, but it
is OK..I am ready to go.'

I was with his wife when he called as she fed
breakfast to their children. I held her up as she
tried to understand his words and as she realized
he wasn't coming home that night.

I was in the stairwell of the 23rd floor when a
woman cried out to Me for help. 'I have been
knocking on the door of your heart for 50 years!' I said.
'Of course I will show you the way home - only
believe in Me now.'

I was at the base of the building with the Priest
ministering to the injured and devastated souls.
I took him home to tend to his Flock in Heaven. He
heard my voice and answered.

I was on all four of those planes, in every seat,
with every prayer. I was with the crew as they
were overtaken. I was in the very hearts of the
believers there, comforting and assuring them that their
faith has saved them.

I was in Texas , Virginia , California , Michigan , Afghanistan .
I was standing next to you when you heard the terrible news.
Did you sense Me?

I want you to know that I saw every face. I knew
every name - though not all know Me. Some met Me
for th e first time on the 86th floor.

Some sought Me with their last breath.
Some couldn't hear Me calling to them through the
smoke and flames; 'Come to Me.. this way... take
my hand.' Some chose, for the final time, to ignore Me.
But, I was there

I did not place you in the Tower that day. You
may not know why, but I do. However, if you were
there in that explosive moment in time, would you have
reached for Me?

Sept. 11, 2001, was not the end of the journey
for you. But someday your journey will end. And I
will be there for you as well. Seek Me now while I may
be found. Then, at any moment, you know you are
'ready to go.'

I will be in the stairwell of your final moments.

God

Sunday, September 7, 2008

When It Rains.......It Pours

This once again has been an interesting week in my house. We sprang a leak in our hallway bathroom. It looks like we are gonna have to replace the vanity, the wall, the floor, and some carpeting in the hallway and an adjoining bedroom.

We of course tried to trouble shoot the problem, but we couldn't find the source of the leak. So we called our home warranty company. In the meantime we had to pack the area with towels and make sure we shut the water off before retiring at night. This stopped the flow of water into our bathroom. But naturally the leak resumed as soon as you turned on the water again for showering, brushing teeth, washing laundry or dishes and so forth. I had to call off of work today to wait for the plumber to come. He was only here 15 minutes and told me he couldn't fix it. It is not a plumbing issue at all. It is an a/c issue. We sprang a leak in a pipe or something leading into the cooling controls in the furnace. We still are not sure where exactly the leak is at. But, it does seem to be coming from the rear of the unit. Which of course is the other side of the wall from the bathroom. So that explains the river running through our bathroom.

So now I have to take off of work again tomorrow to wait for an a/c repairman. How fun!!! Another day spent at home waiting with the kids. Only to have the kids drive the repairman crazy with questions when they do arrive. And then I also piss the boss man off because I am not able to get to work. Oh well, that's the way the ball bounces. Gotta take it as it comes.

It can only get better from here. I keep wondering what the next thing is that is gonna break down. With any luck I will hit the lottery and be able to hire a handyman to have on call 24/7. Wouldn't that be nice? I think I would rather have a cabana boy to serve me drinks by the pool.

Wednesday, September 3, 2008

Insanity Update

Yes, we made it through yet another summer in my house. The kids are back in school and really showing interest in doing different activities this year. My youngest son is thrilled to death about going to kindergarten. And I am thrilled to finally have my garage door at least hanging right. And once again there is peace and quiet in my home at night. I hope the insanity is coming to an end for awhile. I know it will never completely go away, but at least it is a break from the norm.

I can't tell you how happy I am that my nieces and nephew are showing interest in participating in school activities this year. They are already talking about homecoming and how much they want to go to the dance. I remember last year they were so depressed about not attending their old school, we couldn't get them to do anything. No dances, no football or basketball games, nothing. So this year I get the feeling that they feel like they belong here now.

Then there is my son and kindergarten. The first few days were rough. Mainly because of having to readjust to waking up earlier. Normally my husband and I allow the children to sleep in during school breaks. And this in turn allows us some more time to sleep in also. Now, we just have to wake up an hour or so earlier. And we have worked out a plan so that we don't burn ourselves out. Since there are three adults in the house, we agreed to take turns getting my son to school. That means that only one to two days out of the week does anyone person have to wake up early. It's a foolproof plan. And we agreed that the person that gets up early the next morning, gets to go to sleep a little earlier at night. Of course that means that the remaining two have the responsibility of doing the late shift of house cleaning, laundry, cooking and other prep work for the next day.

But, of course it is still early in the year. And I know things always have a way of going wrong. Let's just hope that they continue to go well, and that everyone has a great year in school.

Wednesday, August 27, 2008

What The Heck!!!


This is what happens when your husband tries to repair a garage door that is off the track. For all the wives of "Tim the tool man Taylor's" I understand what you go through. Not too worry though, the damage wasn't too bad. It is only gonna cost $350. dollars to repair the damage. Gotta love it.

Can anyone say OUCH !!!!

Monday, August 25, 2008

Happy Anniversary


Happy Anniversary to my husband. For the last two years we have been on a rollercoaster ride. And as I look back I realize, that I could not have survived if it had not been for you. You have been my husband, my friend, my lover, my psychiatrist when I was crazy, my shoulder to cry on, and the greatest source of comfort in troubled times.

The years have not all been bad. We have shared in some good times also. The days when there is nothing but laughter in our lives. And the joys of watching our children grow. Life has been good to us we must admit. For we are so fortunate to have each other. And in the end of our lives together, when the time comes for us to leave this earth, I will be a better person for having had you in my life.

Thank You Sweetheart for everything you are and everything you do. I Love You !!!

Saturday, August 23, 2008

Exhausted

Today was an exhausting day. We said our final good byes to our dear friend Herman. I cried so much today I got a massive headache. Then I started throwing up. I couldn't keep anything down, not even water. When I finally got home I went straight to bed and slept for like 3 hours. And that is so not like me. I never go to sleep in the middle of the day.

And then we had to field questions from our 5yr old and our 3yr old about death all day. That is always so hard to explain. They just don't have the concept down yet. I try to simplify it by saying that they went to be in heaven with the angels. Or that the angels needed another friend to play with. Or that Jesus was needing another friend to come visit. And then the hardest question of them all, "when will I see Herman again." That of course came from our 5 yr old. Boy, how to answer that one. All I could say was that you will see him again one day.

I do know that things will get better. And the empty space in our lives will eventually be filled with other things. But for now we struggle to adjust to the emptiness left in his absence.

Friday, August 22, 2008

It's Another Mental Vacation Kind Of Day


All this week I have talked about my favorite cities where I have lived. At the top of my list is beautiful Charleston, S.C. I fell in love with the city the first time I walked the battery. I used to go downtown in the evening and walk the historic streets amongst the houses. All you have to do is look around and you get a real sense for the history. I was amazed the last time I was there at home much had changed, and yet so much had not. I think today I will look into the cost of airfare to my favorite city. And just maybe plan a mini vacation to one of my favorite cities.

Monday, August 18, 2008

Rest In Peace Herman

My dear friend Herman passed on to a better life last night. He will be truly missed here by his loved ones. In passing he leaves behind his wife, brothers, sisters, his children, and countless numbers of friends.

He has left an indelible mark on our lives. A true leader he was. He was not just a friend. He was also a mentor, a Godfather to our son, and a guiding hand when needed. Always full of wisdom and knowledge, he always had the solution to whatever was troubling you. I don't think I can ever remember seeing him when he was not smiling. And he possessed a laugh that was absolutely infectious.

In his memory, I hope that we can all life our daily lives to the fullest. Never forgetting that tomorrow may not come. Tell the ones you love how much they mean to you Today.

Rest In Peace Herman....We Love You.

Saturday, August 16, 2008

I Want To Kill The Child

Heaven help me, give me the strength not to kill my nephew. My youngest nephew that is visiting with me.

He has been getting on my nerves since day one. He is only 10 yrs old. He back talks me, disrespects me, disobeys me, and then tonight he balled up his fists and threatened to hit me. I spoke to his mother tonight and told her that he is not allowed in my home anymore unless she stays with him. And he only behaved this way because he knows my husband is away. But even though he is not at home I have kept in touch with him. He is aware of some of the issues, though I have not told him yet that he threatened to hit me.

When it happened I was so close to stuffing my fist down his throat. But, thank God I walked away before I did. I don't believe in hitting children. But, I will not stand by and allow a child to hit on me and do nothing either. I know I would have done serious damage to him if I hadn't walked away. His mother is coming to get him in a few days, but that is not soon enough. I guess I will have to bite my tongue and pray a lot over the next few days.

Lord Give Me The Strength To Not Kill The Child.

My Weekly Mental Vacation


I think I will runaway to Paris today. What the heck, if my husband can take a break with his friends, than I surely can take a mental vacation. So Paris is my destination today. So much can be said about Paris. A beautiful city filled with history. I visited the city about 21 yrs ago, and I remember it like yesterday. I still remember standing in front of Notre Dame cathedral and looking up in awe. The magnitude of the artists handicraft was unimaginable. It is a safe bet that if I was ever given the chance to go again, I would go in a heartbeat.

Take a break from the madness in your lives today ladies. Find an activity that you want to do, and enjoy it to the fullest.

Friday, August 15, 2008

He Gets A Break....Now When Do I Get Mine

My husband is going away with some friends this weekend. Kind of a camping trip. He is happy to be going. And I am happy he is going. It seems like lately he has been getting on my last nerve. I love my husband so much. But some days he just gets under my skin. But, I suppose that happens to all married couples at one time or other.

The worst part of him going away is, I AM STUCK WITH THE KIDS!!! Not that I expected anything different. My world does revolve around the kids after all. And I do suppose that I am like every other woman in the world, I feel unappreciated. It's like my needs come last. The pecking order seems to go like this: My husband, my oldest son, my nieces, my nephew, my other two kids,and bringing up the rear is MOM. Now don't get me wrong, I support my husbands need to get away from the job and kids. He is a hard working man and a loving dad. But, in my dream world, He kisses me and gives me a plane ticket and a ticket for a cruise, and sends me on my merry way. And allows me to enjoy some peace and quiet also. But then the fantasy ends and I am sitting in my living room with screaming kids all around as I say " Calgon Take Me Away!!"

Wednesday, August 13, 2008

Not So Graceful Anymore

I came to the realization last night that I am no longer as graceful as a swan. And that I am still as clumsy as ever.

It was about 2:30 in the morning,and my son had just finished mopping the kitchen floor. I waited about 20 minutes to give the floor time to dry. With the kitchen lights turned off I ventured into the kitchen to throw something into the garbage can. And that's when it hit me. Or should I say I hit it. the floor was dry for the most part. But, I naturally found the one spot on the floor that still had water on it. And I proceeded fall. Now, I of course could not just fall onto the floor. Being the graceful swan that I am, I first fell into the kitchen table and hit my chest on the table. Then I landed onto the floor flat on my back. BAM!!! All I managed to say was "SON OF A ***CH". My husband walked into the kitchen to see me sprawled out on the floor moaning and saying "OH S**T".

After picking myself up and walking back to my bedroom. I just knew that I was gonna be in a lot of pain today. And true to form my ankle hurt from twisting it, my other leg is bruised in the worst way, and my chest is sporting one heck of a bruise.

So, lessons learned were as follows: 1. Turn on kitchen lights before walking into the kitchen. 2. Make sure the floor is dry before walking on it. And 3. Make sure if you do fall that you fall as gently as possible.

Sunday, August 10, 2008

I Wish You Well

To my dear friend Herman;

It has been a fun journey through life the last 4 years. You will be truly missed her in my heart. I wish you all the best. I know it is time for you to go. Your life here has been a full one. You have created many memories for your loved ones to remember you by. But more than anyone else, you will be missed the most by your wife. Your marriage was short, but filled with much love.

Today,is the day that the hospital staff is to turn off the machines that keep you alive. If it is God's will, perhaps you can stay a little while longer. Or maybe he will take you home to be with him. Either way, I want you to know that you have deeply touched my life, more than you will know. And for that I thank you.

To my readers: Today I hope that you can reach out and touch someones life as much as my friend touched mine. Whether it is a hug, a smile, a loving touch, or even holding someones hand. Let the people closest to you know how much you love them. For we don't know what tomorrow holds for us. Don't let another day pass without telling them how much you LOVE THEM.

Tuesday, August 5, 2008

Another Mental Vacation


This week I am so stressed out. I have decided to run away to Hawaii. I will see everyone in a few days.

Anyone wanna join me?

Thursday, July 31, 2008

What Happens When You Wear Sagging Pants

As a lot of you know I work at a major airport. And you also know how much I hate to see people, ( both men and women ) wearing pants that are so big, they are around their knees.

Well, not too long ago, I was going through security. And the man in front of me was wearing pants that were a sagging. He had to remove his belt, and when he did, his pants fell down around his knees. I giggled to myself, as he bent down to pickup his pants. And much to my dismay, when he did bend over, the fly on his boxers popped open to reveal his winky!!! That's right I saw a total strangers winky. I don't even think he was aware that anyone even noticed. But some things in life you just can't help but notice. And of course, I shared the story with all my coworkers. We naturally had a real good laugh at his expense. I know it is wrong to laugh at others misfortunes. But sometimes I just can't help myself.

And that is just another classic example of why you shouldn't wear sagging pants.

Glad My MRI Is Done

So the MRI is done. All I can say is THANK GOD!!! I am so glad I am not claustrophobic. I did start to feel a little nauseous. I closed my eyes at first, and after what felt like an eternity I opened them. And discovered the reason why a person who is claustrophobic would not be able to do an MRI. The machine is literally a few inches from your face. They strap you onto the bed and tell you that you can't move. Then they put a sandbag onto my hand to hold my arm still. Damn if it didn't make it hurt worse. They said it takes 25 minutes for the test to complete. It seemed like it took forever. I told the technicians when they were done that the noise sounded like a bad sci-fi soundtrack. And the table even vibrates at one point in the test. And I even got to wear a pair of ultra cool foam ear plugs to boot.

We get to go and get our other children tomorrow night. They are about 3 hours north of my house. So, I am glad that gas prices have dropped. It will be nice to have everyone home again. But, after spending a month with their mother, it will be interesting to see how much their behavior has changed. I am dreading having to fight to change bad behavior.

Can't wait to kiss my babies again and tuck them into bed. Have a good weekend.

Wednesday, July 30, 2008

Still Struggling In The Weight Game

Everyday I find it harder and harder to stay afloat in the weight loss game. I am making a little progress though. But, I still have my downfalls.

One of my biggest weaknesses is sweets. I haven't figured out how to beat that demon yet. I am so addicted to it, that I find myself making excuses to justify eating it. I find myself standing in front of the vending machine in the break room, struggling to decide which piece of junk food to eat. Should it be the M&M's or the snickers, or even better yet, the Oreo cookies. Normally it's the M&M's, my favorite. And I think the biggest reason I eat it is out of either boredom, or I am reaching for a comfort food. And chocolate has always been a favorite comfort food.

At least this week I have only indulged in 1 mini bag of popcorn. Another favorite of mine. Especially when I go to the movies. And in that case it is definitely mindless munching. Which as I already have figured out is a dangerous thing for me. I wish there was a way when I am at work to substitute for that strong desire to eat.

And of course, the kids and my husband don't help. The kids remind me everyday that I look as though I am 10 months pregnant. And then they beg me to make them a cake or cookies. Or my absolute favorite, my husband brings a bag of chips to bed with him every night. He eats in his sleep. I have never seen anything like it. Imagine the temptation to eat chips while in bed. The smell of then teasing your tastebuds. Hmmm...can you say tasty. I am hungry already.

Brownies anyone????

Monday, July 28, 2008

A Prayer For A Friend

This post is about a very dear friend of our family. His name is Herman. Herman has been a tried and true friend through the years. He is the godfather to our youngest son. And he has been a wonderful listener of my many gripes through the years. Always there when needed to offer a ride when your car is not running, or to just listen to you talk when you have had a bad day.

Well now Herman is very ill. He had a triple bypass operation last week. We visited him in the hospital Friday. He was doing well at that time. But yesterday something went wrong. The hospital staff found him on the floor unresponsive. It took 15 to 20 minutes to revive him. And now they are saying he is brain damaged, and he is on life support. I hate the feeling of helplessness, wanting to help him, but you can't. All I can do is offer up my prayers for him and his family. He just recently celebrated his two year anniversary with his wife.

I know that he is in Gods' hands. And that it is up to God to decide who lives and who must go. But it doesn't make it any easier. In all my 40 yrs on this earth, I still have not learned how to let go, and accept God's will.

All I can do now is close my eyes and say a prayer for his family. And pray that God's will be done.

Saturday, July 26, 2008

Discouraged

I am so discouraged right now. My life is not exactly going the way I planned it. Being deep in debt and struggling to keep my head above water is not helping any. At the end of June I got hurt on the job. Since then I have been on light duty and off light duty, only to be back on light duty again. When you are on light duty it means that you are not allowed to work any overtime. I am currently on light duty again.

As a person swimming in debt, I am in desperate need of overtime hours. It is very hard for me to keep up with my bills without it. Today, I was scheduled to work overtime, I showed up only to be sent home again after a few hours. I guess I should be grateful that I got 2 hours of O.T. So why am I so upset about not getting to work the entire day? I guess it is because I feel as though I am being punished for being hurt on the job. One of my bosses makes me feel as though I am one of those workman comp frauds. You know the people who complain that they hurt their back, then go out and work a construction job. NOT ME!! It is baffling to me that I can raise my arm to a certain level then it hurts, or I can bend my arm at the elbow and put it on top of my head, but I can't straighten it out. I don't get it. Not much I can do about it right now though. Just suck it up and try desperately to make money by other means.

The other issue bothering me is why I am not having any luck with the online stores I created. I have had them out their for a while now. But no luck with anything other than visitors. Maybe it just wasn't meant to be. Maybe I just need to explore other avenues. Out of the three sites I have, by far, my blog has been the most successful. Drawing so much more traffic than I ever dreamed. Sometimes, I wish that there was a magic wand to wave and "POOF" everything in your life that is in need of repair, is magically fixed.

Maybe one day I will be given the magic wand. Until then I have to hold my head up high, and keep on moving. Because if I stop, I will be consumed by all my worst fears. And life as I know it will cease to exist.

Friday, July 25, 2008

The Weight Game

I am playing the weight game again. And I must say I am losing. I was absolutely mortified yesterday when I went to my doctor. As usual, the nurse asked me to step on the scale to check my weight. As I stepped on to the scale, I cringed when I watched the numbers steadily climb. I am now tipping the scale at 207 lbs. And for me, that is a record.

The last time I weighed that much I was pregnant. I have never been over 200 lbs and not pregnant. So now I guess it is time to take a step back and look at my life currently. What about my lifestyle is allowing me to be so overweight. What am I doing wrong? I guess you could say it is all the late night meals, the constant binges on junk food,not exercising,and trying to pretend that I am 21 again,with the metabolism to match. And just letting myself fall into a nasty slump. I suppose it would be easy to say that it is all the stress of daily life getting to me. But, that is the chickens way out. Blame it all on someone or something else. I need to step up and take responsibility for myself and my own actions.

It Is Time To Take Action. I will no longer sit back and be overweight. I am not sure how,but, I have to take control of my life NOW!!! Lord, just give me the strength to beat this awful monkey on my back. And take back my life. So I can fight the never ending fight with the scale.

Now, the question is.....Where Do I Begin???

Thursday, July 24, 2008

It's Finally Over

YES !!! Summer school has finally come to an end. Today was my nieces last day of summer school. I am so happy I could pee my pants. I never thought I would be so happy about school being over with. That means that come tomorrow morning, we get to sleep in. No waking up at the crack of frigging dawn to drive her to school. I can finally turn my alarm clock off tonight.

I must admit,I have gotten very good at driving her to school in my sleep. I nod off at red lights and wake on cue when the light changes to green. I even did something I swore I would never do....I drove her to school in my pajamas. I Just grab the first pair of shoes I find, usually my work shoes, and I throw on the socks I was wearing the night before. And for anyone that knows me they know that means pajamas with black knees socks and black shoes. Then I top it off with one of my husbands shirts. I must admit with the messed up hair that needs to be combed and the clothes, I am the sexiest mom that ever drove a child to school.

T.G.I.F.F. ( Thank God It's Finally Friday )

Sunday, July 20, 2008

Vacation Over??

I spoke to my niece the "BIG D" last night. I asked her if she was having a good time visiting with her mother. Her reply to me was NO!! I kind of snickered for a moment, and then regained my composure. It seems that the children are ready to return home. And after only one week with mom. Even my son is saying he is ready to come home to mom
and dad. But I did expect that. He is after all only four.

I can only imagine the chaos that has taken over my sister-in-laws house. She currently has 7 children in the house with her. Now keep in mind that only four of them live with me. The other three are her grandchildren. I know it sound confusing. But it really is not. And also, keep in mind, that these are the same children that when they visit me, SWING FROM THE CEILING FAN!!! I almost feel sorry for her. Because I know how the chaos can frazzle your nerves very quickly.

So, it seems as though my 3 week vacation is about to be cut short by a week. I guess I can't complain too much. After all I will have had 2 blissful weeks of peace and quiet. And I am feeling like a renewed woman. I guess I will just have to make the best of the coming week. Maybe I will site outside in the quiet every night when I get home from work. Grab a cup of tea and sit out on the deck under the stars, and let my mind wander. Wander far, far away to a quiet island. To let the warm sand squish between my toes while the sun warms my body. I got a daiquiri in my hand, and a handsome cabana boy rubbing suntan oil on my back.

Oops!! I drifted a little too far. Time to return to the land of the frazzled mother. But tonight when my eyes close and I drift off to sleep, the dream will continue. Maybe, I can get the cabana boy to rub my tired feet. Now I know it's only a dream.

Saturday, July 19, 2008

She Dressed Herself Again !


Can you tell my daughter is at it again. She come walking out of her room dressed like this. I couldn't help but grab my camera and take the picture. I am still trying to figure out what kind of fashion statement this is !!!

It Feels Like The Twilight Zone

Last night I was sitting in my living room doing my usual work on the computer, when suddenly the lights went out. With not a cloud in the sky I was puzzled as to why. My husband was sound asleep on the couch behind me. The moment the lights went out he woke up. It seemed like forever that the lights were out. But a minute later they came back on again. As I sat there confused the power suddenly went out again. Only to return a minute later. This cycle happened one more time. In a moment of uncertainty of whether they would go out again, I began to look for flashlights and candles. And in my house that is a huge task. The kids are forever swiping my flashlights and taking the batteries out. After a few minutes my son decided to go outside to investigate the cause of the outage. He rushed back in the house and in a panicked voice told me to come outside. About a block away from us was smoke and the bright light of a fire. And there was the humming noise of a transformer on fire. Out of curiosity we walked the two blocks over to investigate what was going on. The entire neighborhood was abuzz with traffic. Cars everywhere and people wandering aimlessly to see what was the cause. When we got to the scene we discovered it was just a downed power line. And the fire department was already there blocking the road.

I decided to return home and hurriedly finish my work on the computer. I just knew that they would be cutting all power soon to repair the line. When I got home and booted my computer back up, I was disappointed to find that the internet server was also affected by the down line. It is frustrating to not be able to complete a project already in progress, but that is life. I was lucky that they did not cut the power until this morning.

Thank goodness all is back to normal. The power is back on. The internet is working again. And I can once again get my daily fix for my addiction.

Thursday, July 17, 2008

Mental Vacation # 6


I am off to the Grand Canyon this time. I want to ride the river, or ride a mule to the bottom. Or even hike to the bottom myself. I really just want to stand on the edge and look out over the vast expanse of the canyon, and stare in awe and wonder at the wonderful work of art that God has made.

This would have to be a family vacation. I can just see the entire family at the Canyon, after spending days in a car driving across the country. Only to hear, " Is this what you brought us here for, we could have went to Disney World!!" Yep, that would be my family at the Grand Canyon.

Monday, July 14, 2008

Peace At Last

I finally have peace in my house. Even though it is only for a few weeks, I am planning on enjoying every second of it.

The "Big D", "Crazy Marc","Mister K" and the incredible "Miss Z" are on a visit with family. They left on Friday night and won't be back for like 3 weeks. We still have my niece "TT" my daughter "Miss J" and my oldest child here at home. But the biggest chaos makers are not here. I noticed an immediate calm come over the house once everyone was gone. And I noticed a calmer, less stressed out ME! It's amazes me how much more relaxed I am when I am not chasing after what feels like a million kids.

We do have a few plans up our sleeves for the coming weeks. We are gonna try and take advantage of the quiet time to get some things done at home. And we are contemplating a small visit to Canada.

Like I said this is a time for me to enjoy the quiet. I think this Saturday I am gonna do a yard sale in the early day, and go to the pool later on in the evening. Maybe take in a movie with my niece. Whatever I do I will enjoy it to the fullest.

May You Enjoy Every Minute Of Every Day. Live Today Like Tomorrow Will Never Come.

Wednesday, July 9, 2008

Thanks Doc!!

I have to say a big Thank You to my doctor for the wonderful pain medication they gave me last week. Not only does it relieve my pain in the best possible way, it puts me into a coma also. I must have become a big Wuss, because I am only taking 600mg Motrin every 6 hours. I was at work yesterday, and was very uncomfortable, so I took a pill. Then a few hours later I was fighting going comatose. It took all the strength I had not to fall asleep until I could get into the car to go home. All I can say is Thank God my husband was driving. I was sound asleep before I even hit the bed. And I slept all the way until 7:30 this morning. I haven't slept like that in like 20 yrs.

So my goal for today is to not take any pain medication until at least the end of the day. I hope I can hold out that long.

Monday, July 7, 2008

Mental Vacation # 5


This week I am off to our national parks. Maybe it will be Yellowstone or Yosemite. Or even Shenandoah. The options are endless. But I can't think of a better way to see this land of ours. Than to be off on a wonderful never ending Mental Vacation.

Friday, July 4, 2008

A Day Spent Cutting Up 2


A few days ago, a woman that I work with suggested that we bring the kids down to visit her. Sandrose wanted to take us to a dairy and to the firehouse where she volunteers. We agreed that it would be a wonderful opportunity to get out of the house and have fun. So, off we went.

We went to the dairy first. Where the kids got a chance to see some livestock up close. The kids laughed and had a good time. Although the smell were familiar to me and my husband. It took some convincing to get the kids to understand that a farm is supposed to smell like that. Of course it was a new experience for me when my friend stuck my thumb into a calf's mouth and let it suck my thumb. I laughed so hard I almost peed myself.

Then off to the firehouse we went. Where Sandrose showed us different features of the trucks. Then let us try on her gear. I couldn't control my laughter when my husband put on her helmet and coat. He's 6'5" and she is about 5'9". He looked like he was playing dress up with baby clothes.

We finished off the day with ice cream. And of course everyone was so tired they fell asleep in the car on the way home. I enjoyed myself. And I enjoyed watching the kids have fun. A big thank you to Sandrose for letting the kids play with her gear and taking us out of the city and into the country even if it was just for a hour or two.

Today is the 4th of July. I get a day off from cooking in the kitchen. We have a bar b que and a birthday party to go to today. And then tonight it is our annual pilgrimage to a park in our community to watch the fireworks. That tradition started 6 years ago when my husband and I were dating. We sat under the fireworks and kissed. It was so romantic. Now when we go it's not so much about kissing as it is about chasing after kids. But we still manage to sneak in a kiss or two here and there.

Enjoy your holiday today. Enjoy spending time with your family today. And laugh like you have never laughed before.